I just saw this nice quote in grack.com. I thought this to be appropriate to my entrepreneurial endeavor.
... fantasies have to be unrealistic. Because the moment, the second you get what you seek, you don’t, you can’t want it anymore. In order to continue to exist, desire must have it’s objects perpetually absent. It’s not the it that you want; it’s the fantasy of it. So desire supports crazy fantasies. This is what Pascal means when he says that we are only truly happy when daydreaming about future happiness. Or why we say the hunt is sweeter than the kill, or be careful what you wish for. Not because you’ll get it, because you’re doomed not to want it once you do.
So the lesson of Leccan is, living by your wants will never make you happy. What it means to be fully human is to strive to live by ideas and ideals, and not to measure your life by what you’ve attained in terms of your desires, but those small moments of integrity, compassion, rationality, even self sacrifice. Because in the end, the only way that we can measure the significance of our own lives, is by valuing the lives of others.
-- David Gale, Life of David Gale
Is this human nature? While I strove to be accepted into Harvard and hired into Microsoft, did I begin to value my experiences at each of these institutions less after my admittance. Did I begin to view these privileges of association as entitlements?
What does this have to say about my entrepreneurial ambitions, and what will I think of my success, if I am successful? Will I appreciate it more, because it was uniquely my own success, a triumph of persistence and dedication against a backdrop of pessimism and discouragement from wife, family, friends and ex-coworkers? Or, will I appreciate it less, forgetting the whole journey along with the accompanying pain and doubt, when it's all over.
One thing I do know: This is a highly personal journey, leading to a deepening awareness of myself, my weaknesses, and my values. Perhaps, I will someday look back at it as the reason for my life.